bleeuurrggghhh

Im really sick.
Im sure Ive written it before.
Ive been on an doff ill for the last five weeks. Everyone says “oh its this bug that going around”, …eh I dont think so. I think a chest Xray might be a good plan and some pressure on the doctor.
Jesus, doctors here are UN-believable……….. WTF? Where I come from, when your sick you go to the doctor, s/he tests you bend over say aww etc etc then asks a few questions does some more tests, then does some more asks a few more and then says ok you are sick with…. and writes you a perscription if you need one or sends you to the hosp for an xray or somewhere for something. Here, you go in, you tell them whats wrong with you and what drungs you want and then you leave and thats it……………………………
I almost want to flee to canada just to go to a doctor…..

Anyway, I think I have something serious.

A moment

Welcome everybody, everybody welcome. everyone meet everyone else. Be glad to know you are all here because you are all very intelligent people in my own personal belief of what intelligence actually is on a basic street level understanding.

I decided Id spend the day in bed (Sunday), I have been very busy and sick for the last few weeks so Im on vacation in bed today with my new Radiohead album http://www.inrainbows.com I paid a quid for it.

Im browsing the internet like I havent done in ages looking at other peoples photography and came accross this guy http://www.chrisjordan.com/ and am fascinated by his vision. However it almost shits me now to the point that I want to turn the tables and start laying the shit on the Europeans. (even though ironically this photographer is in fact American himself, though a victim of his own short commings -this will become apparent as you read on).

its become quite the catch phrase for use to drop the open gated gesture of “In the US..” which from living here now for three years and going from the open mouthed ignorance of a audienced outsider to an informed “embed”, I can honestly say is possibly the most over used and under appreciated turn of phrase currently bandied about without much regard for its actual meaning.

Im not one for religion, to me its the politicism of ones personal belief mechanism and convenient metaphore for understanding the things which are not that understandable. However, the largest policitcal institution out there -the HRE (Holy Roman Empire), (I enjoy a fully paid up membership being Irish, I dont have to subscribe every month or even year, we are endebted with lifelong memberships from birth we can get away will all kinds of stuff you pagans cant -I dont even have to go to church its great) anyway sorry for boasting, where was I, oh yes..
Not being one for religion etc, they (we) have a great book out there that if it wasnt called the Bible would probably be on the NY times best seller list indefinitely, and in it somewhere around page 368 it says ‘Let he who is without sin cast the first stone” which basically means people who live in glasshouses shouldnt throw stones.

It bothers me considerably that our impotent (in any real sense) guardians of moral elevated authority -the media- Im thinking specifically of non american media and within that specifically british media because every other media organisation with inclusion of al-jazeera (yes yes yes these people just love to copy the already tried true and tested formulae and drop it on its head and re-engineer if from the waist up -but they fail to realise that their signiture methodology comes from a source that is the antithesis of what they themselves represent, kind of like eating your own hands, but then agian its because of that religion stuff -again), is parrot-like in the shadow format of these two organisations. Specifically the BBC. Its that over use of the phrase “In the US” which bothers me so.

In the US, the US part of this phrase refers to a country for those of you who have forgotten. This country is not a bucolic paradigm to which it has been customarily designed through the culpapble lack of language.

America is the pretty red ribbon used to bind the segments of that beautiful whole, that whole which represents vastly more then the sum of its parts. It is a basic and complex summation of parts. It is easy for us to use a phrase to prescribe a percieved mindset which exists within a geographic location to a single fragmentalised action, a pre-structuralised subset or a specificly designed mechanism, and even easier for those of us who cannot begin to wear the livery of pre-established foundation, to throw valuable words around in a trivial frivolous inconsequential manner, specifically in this time when every syllable and inference is of the utmost of importance.

head in a vice

Probably the most stressfull week of recent times. This past month has been tumultuous to say the least. Feels like saturns return.
My dad wants me to go back to Ireland to help him move. I dont have the time or the money to do that, so I risk losing my entire back catalog of negatives.
I got a lung infection and missed a week of work so my pay check will be horrendous.
I am in the midst of my immigration review, and recently learned that the level of paperwork needed to make the review work properly as a joint venture between me and my estranged wife, just isnt there, so I now have to get a divorce initiated within the next five days. The cost of which is undesireable considering I have a number of small debts to pay off. I also have to get my I-751 form and paperwork in and pay $200 for the luxury of that, within five days or I will be faced with immediate deportation proceedings -that actually means the deportation is immediate, no chance to sell off and pack up. Though there is chance to appeal but from afar -after you have left the country…….. I am asking all that know me to write me character references, -it amazes me, the people who i would consider friends havent bothered to do it and the people I consider colleagues have been on it from the moment I asked.

Yeah, a vacation would be really great.